to J.

Boy
I cried over
and fussed over
and wanted
to make mine

I will take
all my feelings
for you
and pour them
into a point
of blue
to stay forever
round.

... the way I held you
the way I clung to you
the way I thought of you
until it poured
drops of blood

Enter my skin
with your eyes
and your mind
I will hold out
my hand
and promise
I will smile
when it’s time
to let go